Alpha Daddy
✯Cᴏᴀʟᴇsᴄᴇᴅ sᴘᴀᴄᴇᴅᴜsᴛ✯   San Antonio, Texas, United States
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Dakota Jones/Alpha Daddy/Jex
2/21/1996 - 5/22/2017

Jex's mom here. I now have access to Jex's account. I was going to close my son's account, but friends of his asked me not to. I will accept friends request for those who would like to post to his page, but I will not answer messages through his account. Many of you have sent him private goodbyes.
-Bloodgoddess25/Mom

March 28,2018
Thank you all for wishing my son a Happy Birthday. I had a hard time that day. Did lots of crying. I can't believe it will be a year in May that he left. It still feels like yesterday. I was sitting here the other day thinking about when he would play arma or GM or whatever he was playing. He would be talking crap with y'all. Usually talking ♥♥♥♥ lol. He had his headphones on so he didn't realize how loud he was and I'd go in his room and tell him to stfu already. Now I would do anything to hear his voice again. I'd do anything to see him again. But on the flip side, I am trying to grief more positively. Is that even a thing? Basically, I stop questioning why. I stop with the constant what ifs. I realized it won't change anything. He will still be gone. And I will never get answers anyway. I'm learning how to let myself go through whatever emotion I need at that moment and then pick myself up and move forward. It's not always easy. I see something he liked. Hear something that reminds me of him. Or I find something in the house that was his or he had last. And it sometimes brings me to my knees. Literally. It's funny though. If he knew I was on his steam acct talking to his friends he would have had a fit. I guess I embarrassed him 😢. Even funnier. He was exactly like me.
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Trey 28 янв в 9:35 
Missing you never gets any easier no matter how much time passes, i dont even remember how long its been now, but we still think about you all the time.
Sen 28 янв в 1:15 
So I went to FWA. I don't know if you ever went to it. Don't know if con's were even your thing. I think I just kinda forgot. I'm an idiot, I know.

I think the weird part was this board that was there that was kind of haunting me. It was a "for those no longer with us" thing. Write the name down. I don't know why I noticed it at first but I know for a fact it kept moving.

It was in the corner of my eyes first. Then it was next to me and eventually directly in front of where I was walking through the weekend. I guess I needed to let it out.

So I did

At like 3AM on a Saturday I wrote down your name. Seven years later.I don't know why that was what broke me again. Cried like a baby in my friend's arms. Yeah. I'm a ♥♥♥♥♥ you can say it.

It's funny. I guess Im learning no matter how 'over it' you can project you're never really okay with it. Maybe that's just me.

God I miss you.
Sen 28 янв в 1:02 
I don't really think you ever knew how much I loved and cared about you. You're the reason I'm so insistent to tell my friends "I love you" instead of "Goodbye" most days. There are days I think about you and cry. Other days I think about you and smile. I guess that's what it's all about.

All in all I still am the idiot who looks up at the stars because of you. You'd call me so many things if I ever told you that, then we'd laugh and go back to whatever dumb-ass game we were playing, probably.

Love you, buddy.
Epicdenver 26 янв в 8:46 
recently i found a old clip from arma 3 exile with jex in it, and seeing you guys all post about it.
Polybius 25 янв в 20:10 
me too, i feel awful for the time my friends told me to kick him out of playing a sven coop game with us, now more than i ever do i wish he had joined us :(
Beep Boop 25 янв в 14:45 
I still think about you from time to time man, I cant believe it has already been almost 8 years.