Missing you never gets any easier no matter how much time passes, i dont even remember how long its been now, but we still think about you all the time.

So I went to FWA. I don't know if you ever went to it. Don't know if con's were even your thing. I think I just kinda forgot. I'm an idiot, I know.

I think the weird part was this board that was there that was kind of haunting me. It was a "for those no longer with us" thing. Write the name down. I don't know why I noticed it at first but I know for a fact it kept moving.

It was in the corner of my eyes first. Then it was next to me and eventually directly in front of where I was walking through the weekend. I guess I needed to let it out.

So I did

At like 3AM on a Saturday I wrote down your name. Seven years later.I don't know why that was what broke me again. Cried like a baby in my friend's arms. Yeah. I'm a ♥♥♥♥♥ you can say it.

It's funny. I guess Im learning no matter how 'over it' you can project you're never really okay with it. Maybe that's just me.

God I miss you.

I don't really think you ever knew how much I loved and cared about you. You're the reason I'm so insistent to tell my friends "I love you" instead of "Goodbye" most days. There are days I think about you and cry. Other days I think about you and smile. I guess that's what it's all about.

All in all I still am the idiot who looks up at the stars because of you. You'd call me so many things if I ever told you that, then we'd laugh and go back to whatever dumb-ass game we were playing, probably.

Love you, buddy.

recently i found a old clip from arma 3 exile with jex in it, and seeing you guys all post about it.

me too, i feel awful for the time my friends told me to kick him out of playing a sven coop game with us, now more than i ever do i wish he had joined us :(

I still think about you from time to time man, I cant believe it has already been almost 8 years.

I just wanted to drop in to my boy's page and thank you all for continuing to remember him and leave him messages. It makes me feel good knowing he's not been forgotten.

There's one album/song that still reminds me of you, rest well friend. We all miss you so much.

still miss you buddy

your the reason i havent done what you did, a blessing and a curse.
you gave me a greater meaning to a form of music but all it does is make me think of you.
i got better but i just find that many things either are a form of self loathing / learning and or just that much of our existence is meant to be this way.
i guess my wording here is to pray for simpler times like when we gamed, i was a unformed grey matter and everything was fun for just that.

good lord how this world has changed since you left my man i miss you

i miss you so much

I miss you dude. We all do. Rest easy

Been a few years, still think about ya buddy, miss seeing you online.

Wish you were here.

Not sure what it was but something reminded me of you today.. I didn't get to know you all that well in the time we had but I still wish I had.
I guess I just felt the need to stop by again and say hey, even if you'll never get to read it. Hope you've found peace.

Still dye my hair purple for you <3

Still missing you dude, it feels like just the other day we were hanging out

thinking about you tonight. love you man. wish i could talk to you one more time. i'll never forget what we had together

missing you bud

Happy 27th birthday to my son. It's been almost 6 years that you have been gone, but it still feels like yesterday to me. I think about you every single day and can't wait til we see each other again. I love and miss you so very much!

Missing you, friendo.

Hey bud... It's Inc. I miss you man. I hope you're having a hell of a time up there. I come back and check your profile once a week hoping that this is one really ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥♥ dream that I'm living but it isn't... Life hasn't been the same without you. I'm getting married soon, I know that my girl would've loved having your company and would want you to be there to celebrate with us. Keep a seat warm for me though, time doesn't fly nearly as fast up there as it does here man. Love you.

life has gotten so much more complicated since you left, its almost your birthday and i just couldn't shake the feeling. i'm almost 4 months sober and i cant help but want to break it because its all i've ever done when i think about losing you brother. few people have shaped me like you have,i miss you more than you can imagine and what i wouldn't give for you back now.
it doesn't get easier it seems just harder to forget

Still miss you so much buddy, still remember the last night we talked, hope you're doing good where ever you are <3

you gave me the strength to get through losing my best friend,i still cant believe how much you gave me and i never realized it.
i miss you all the time and i still find alot of thoughts about our time together.
things were so simple back then, now everything is just gray and i miss having you by my side.

i miss you jex, i knew today felt off. something made me check here and why i felt so awful
hope you help me be a better person that you always thought i would be.
there isn't a month i think about you, and not a time i don't remember and cry about the memories we had and the ones we did't' get to have.
Rest in Peace buddy i still miss you alot and i try to make the last advice you gave me into something to make me not a ♥♥♥♥♥♥ person.
god bless, sincerely ryan

Happy Birthday my son. You would have been 25 today!

Been too long since your last comment. Still missing you every day bud, and I always will. Love you, man. Hope you're resting easy out there, jamming away to all those tunes

It's been 3 years and you're still on my mind. I hope you're in a better place.

Almost been three years, now. I'll remember you forever. I love you, brother.

one year since you were last online.... still cry and i cant seem to move on; i feel pressured to be a better person, and that i'm never good enough.
you introduced me to my favorite genre of music i didn't know existed; and now all i can do when i listen is cry. i wish you were still here and it feels like i'm and empty husk because everyday i try to improve my friends life to not end up at this road again.
you taught me that loss is and important thing for growth....but i wish i didn't have to lose you.

rip you taught me so much and i feel like your watching over me.

happy late birthday, haven't been at my computer till now... miss you every time i listen to music

I'm a couple of days late: Happy late birthday, friend.

Haven't forgotten you.

Hope you're having a blast out there. Rest easy.

Sergal steamrollers never die

Blessed are those that rest.

It's been two years, but it still feels like yesterday when we hung out. Miss you man.

Havn't forgotten about ya. Wish I could see ya again

Always alive in our memory

Miss you brother

Hope you're doing well otherwise. Stay safe, Jex's mum.

Thank you sleepy. I really miss him. I think about him every single day. He took a huge part of me whennhe left.

Didn't know ya all that closely but I remember our occasional chats fondly. Hope you've found peace

Think about you a lot mate. Hope if there is anything after we go you're all good man. And to his mum I hope you're doing okay. Love from britain.

So I want a commissioned art piece for Jex and have a special request. This artwork will be printed and placed on Dakota's urn table. Could someone please inbox me of you are up for the task?

Love love love all your comments for Jex. I read them to him often.

Jex's sister here.

I just wanted to say a quick thanks to everyone for all the kind words. Haven't had it in my heart to do much here, sometimes reading the things you guys say is a bit hard. But I love reading the things everyone says. Very moving. I wish he could have seen how loved he was.
99% sure he would have called you all gay though. Lol.

Thank you all for your kind words. They mean a lot to me and my mother.

I was just on the periphery. I knew him, yeah, but not to the extent most others in this comment section did. His death brought a great deal of sadness to me. Death is too...final. It's the burning of a book that was only in its third chapter. But... it lightens the blow somewhat when I see that his friends - people who knew him much better than me - miss him so dearly as he improved their life so much.

Through my (all too few in number, and all too brief) interactions with him, I could easily tell that ee was unique. He was a special one; a rare type of person, and he'll be missed by many.

In the end, though, surely a comment section filled with commisserations - the flow of memories and remembrance thinning sometimes, but never truly stopping. To be held in memory. Some part of him - the things he left with us, and the way he touched our lives - will never die.

To his mother - I can't possibly even begin to understand what this could possibly feel like. I am so sorry.

i still cry nearly every day, you taught me who i am today. i never want anyone to feel unloved as you did, i want you to be remember as helping me help everyone i help, i want you to to know that your loss will never be forgotten. thank you jex
please never leave me, miss you forever and ever
ryan misses you and i cant forget you mean so much.

On the road the other day, i saw a car driving with the liscense plate JEX LUV from texas and nearly got into an accident because i didnt know what to do. i just froze and couldnt think

You taught me my favorite musical genre to this date, and everytime i listen to it i can never stop thinking about you... i feel guilty for never really adopting the music till after your passing, but i carry on your legacy with my musical tastes. thank you for everything jex and i miss you more than you can ever know. thank you bro, love you till the end and i will see you again one of these days