Nexus HCRP

I'm sorry guys. I have a confession to make. I feel as if, many things are my fault.

As many of you know, 2 years ago, a dear friend to us all passed away. Peasant the Unruley, the owner of the Avalon and Nemesis servers, commited suicide by overdose. It was shocking, to say the least. I was very quiet, and I tried to keep my distance. But I feel its partly my fault this happened. Please let me explain. I can't take this guilt anymore. I need to speak about what happened.

The night before his death, I think I was the last person to talk with him. He was feeling down. I had recently admined on his server, and had been talking with him frequently since then. He was trapped in a dark place. I've been there before myself, so I know how it feels. Being the idiot I am, I thought I could make a difference. So I put my nose in places it didn't belong, and I invited him to chat. We spoke about life, about failure, and about picking up the pieces. I saw a side of Peasant that I had never seen before, and I tried to help him learn to believe in himself. I tried to tell him that failure provides us life's greatest lessons, and that there are always more chances to repair things. After the conversation ended, I bought him a game on steam (Deus Ex Game of the Year, my favorite title). But I think this was a huge mistake, because he never accepted the gift. The next morning, we all know what happened. I believe I am partly at fault.

Recently, I may have done bad things. I have felt guilty, and I have taken too many burdens upon myself. I tried to fix too many things around me at once. I put my own identity on the line. Some people were getting nasty, I got one of them removed from the community. More people got nasty, I retaliated by being nasty back, and I got banned from Taleworlds.

Now that I am gone, and I will never return, I think its time to reveal my darkest secret. And for this, I am very sorry. I did not mean to do this. But I am guilty none the less.

May Peasant live forever in our hearts.