Cant Win, better cheat to make myself feel better

If Dark Souls is too hard for you, maybe try a different game, something more suited to your skill level, there are many casual games available on Steam.

Or if losing constantly in PVP frustrates you, stick to PVE if you arent good enough and keep getting beaten. There are also many online guides to help someone like you who's clearly new to Dark Souls or gaming in general.