1#
I don't have anything else going for me other than the piano.

I made it such a huge part of my personality. It was all I did

When I realized why, I wanted to stop breathing.

There's nothing else in me.

Nothing worthy.

Nothing good.

Nothing lovable.

Until I met you."


2#
I hope this letter makes sense because honestly,
my mind is in this weird space, and I need to get it out.
I can't shake this feeling that everything is slipping away, like the ground beneath my feet is turning into quicksand.

You're a huge part of my sanity, and it feels like I'm on the brink of losing it.

The idea of not having you around freaks me out - it's getting harder to distinguish between what's real and what's in my head.

Your absence messes with my head, and I can't shake the feeling that I'm unraveling.

You're the one thing that's been keeping me grounded, and the thought of losing that grip terrifies me.

Maybe you can make sense of this because right now, I'm not sure I can."




3#
This is love.

The love I've been searching for

I found it

I'm happy that even I can be loved

someone like me who's a bad child

Stay with me




4#
Dad was a drunk.
He ran off with his mistress, so it was just mom and us.

I said something a good child wouldn't say, and she got mad.

She put us a through the i love you test again, and it went great.

The staining on the knife took a long time to come out, but I cleaned and cleaned and it.

When mom comes back, she'll put us through the test again.

I love you, I love you, I love you. Please, don't die."