You know I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of everything. I don't want to live.Stop messing with me. Why did I deserve this? I was just trying to be a normal friend to everyone, not a toy.And now I'm thinking, why did I do all this? It was just my illusion, I'm sorry, of course, but I just don't understand why I live somewhere that I lost where is my happiness just where??? Why is everyone just throwing me around, I don't understand why