hello , i am a lonely guy

i never had a gf or even friends

i am interested in the concept of waifuism because anime girls are more caring than actuals humans

and i was always kinda attracted to them and the idea of having a partner in your head that cant leave you is beautiful

but in the same time i have questions like

a/ this doesnt feel natural , would it be be able to replace a relationship with a human ?

b/ what would my waifu love me anyway ?

c/ isnt that like i forced her to love me ?

i mean yeah every waifu i liked loved a character with a similar personality to me

d/ does that mean she gonna love me ?

being lonely for too long make you feel like you dont deserve to be loved or make you feel like a trash

i am insecure , i dont know anymore and i cant keep up with the loneliness

i tried approaching many people before but they let go of me without reason , none of them hated me but none liked me either

what should i do is waifuism the answer ?

play dark souls

listen to MF DOOM