Sorry for my English, I'm from Brazil and haven't been here long. I'm gay, but it's very hard for me because I'm a very religious person. I had never been with another man before. After six weeks in the U.S., I got close to a friend who's also gay, and we ended up being intimate. Physically, it felt good, but I felt extremely guilty. At the moment of orgasm, the guilt was so strong that I grabbed my phone and called my mom in Brazil, even though it was late at night. Crying, I shouted, 'Mom, I'm having sex with a man.' She was confused and just said, 'Don’t marry an American girl.' I replied, 'That’s not it! I’m with a man!' I hung up feeling ashamed and lost. My friend was embarrassed too. I still don’t understand why I did it, I just know that in the moment, it felt very intense.

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Nunca vou me esquecer quando estávamos na margem do Maracanã, tu me disse que as águas eram boas, que eu podia beber. Por duas semanas fui constantemente lembrado daquele momento, e eu nunca vou me esquecer.

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