Heyoooo Green Panda. I don't tend to post much of any comments anywhere but I felt like doing it now.
Just wanted to wish a good happy seasons greetings and a hopefully good outcome on your end.
Deserved or not you are getting this happy blessing and taking it!
Not that I even tend to ask what holiday or belief people have xD
but in these trying times across the world trouble can come from anywhere. So I can at least say I injected something hopeful with no trouble in tow ;D

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⠑⠒⠒⠒⠉⣻⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠿⠤⠤⢊⣀⣀⠀⠀⠙⠟⠁
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⣿⣿⣿⡏⠀⠘⢄⠉⠒⣲⣿⣿⣿⣿⡄⠀⠀⠀⢿⣦⣿⡄
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⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⣄⠀⠀⠹⣿⡿⢸⣿⣿⠀⢠⣶⣦
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