I loved him and it was wrong but it felt so right ! No man had ever made me feel this way before and I couldn't help but want him more and more everyday . See I was only 19 and Mike was 40 but I didn't care about his age . He took my virginity when I was 15 & I've been In Love since . I knew we could never be together openly and plus he had a wife . Anything we ever did was a secret and we made sure it stayed that way . He bought me a car and an apartment so we could have more ways to see each other . Every afternoon at 5:30 he comes by after work on his way home to her . Although I know about his wife , I don't consider myself a side chick because we have something special , that even she can't take . Mike is mine .

I noticed I've had a weird appetite lately and I've been a lot more tired than usual . Which could only mean one thing ...I was pregnant . Sure enough , I took a test and I was pregnant . I immediately started crying in disbelief wondering me how I would break the news to him . I didn't know what to do . I even considered an abortion . I dreaded telling Mike because I feared his reaction . Not knowing if he would be angry or upset . We never talked about children because we knew it was wrong but here we are .

I texted Mike one day and told him to slide thru when he gets a chance . Usually that means I need some but I had to get this off my chest . Don't get me wrong , we did our usual and oh didn't it feel wonderful . After we finished , I sat up and burst into tears . He then grabbed my hand and asked "what's wrong baby" ? I then stopped wondering what I should say next . He told me he loved me and whatever it was , that we would get through it together . Me being me , I cried even harder . Not because I was pregnant , but because I didn't know whether to tell Mike that he was about to be a father , or a grandfather ....because Mike was my dad .