“那一天 我第一次对自己说谎
我告诉自己
这是无可奈何的
但是…
说实话 那种感觉并不坏
再也不用吃冰冷的饭
也不用睡在坚硬的地板上
最重要的是
第一次感觉到自己被他人所需要
第一次感受到自己能帮上他人的忙
对我而言 这才是最重要的
但是 那个时候
我才想起
这一切都只是谎言

然后我再一次 对自己说谎了
我以为这样就能拯救大家
然而 并没有如愿以偿
那个时候我就在想 这大概就是惩罚吧
并不是因为受人唆摆
去欺骗众人的惩罚
而是因为欺骗自己 以为自己能够帮助
不断对自己说谎的惩罚

当我再次睁开眼睛的时候
呈现在我眼前的是无限的自由
假如命运真的存在于世上
我也只能放声嘲笑它的变化无常
但是那个一天 我对自己发誓了
再也不再说谎了
再也不会对自己说谎
我一定要坦诚地活下去”
《进击的巨人》8-12-2022

add me, can you?

“——The First Flame quickly fades. Darkness will shortly settle. But one day, tiny flames will dance across the darkness. Like embers, linked by Lords past.
——Ashen One, hearest thou my voice still?”
《Dark Souls III》10-5-2018

“One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. ‘Which road do I take?’ she asked. ‘Where do you want to go?’ was his response. ‘I don’t know,’ Alice answered. ‘Then,’ said the cat, ‘it doesn’t matter.”
《Alice in Wonderland》8-10-2018

"I lingered round them, under that benign sky: watched the moths fluttering among the heath and harebells, listened to the soft wind breathing through the grass, and wondered how any one could ever imagine unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth."
《WUTHERING HEIGHTS》7-16-2018

Nobody belongs anywhere, nobody exists on purpose, everybody's going to die.

+exec 1.cfg -novid -noforcemaccel -noipx -nojoy -preload -highpriority -processheap -width 1152 -height 864

mp_respawn_immunitytime 0

mp_free_armor 2

Sacrifce is meaningless without remebrance.

+exec 1.cfg -novid -noforcemaccel -noipx -nojoy -preload -highpriority -processheap -width 1280 -height 960

2017.2.16 Still waiting but with hope.

dpi 1120 /sensitivity 0.8/ Logitech G302 /RAZER BLACK SHAFT/

+exec 1.cfg -novid -noforcemaccel -noipx -nojoy -preload -highpriority -processheap -width 1280 -height 720

If my heart had wings,

战争结束后，还能干什么？

善始者实繁，克忠者盖寡。

sv_cheats 1
sv_grenade_trajectory 1
sv_showimpacts 1
give weapon_ak47
give weapon_awp
give weapon_smokegrenade
give weapon_flashbang
give weapon_molotov
give weapon_hegrenade

cl_crosshair_drawoutline "1"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_maxdist_splitratio "0.900000"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitalpha_innermod "0.800000"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitalpha_outermod "1"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitdist "-1.500000"
cl_crosshair_outlinethickness "0.500000"
cl_crosshair_sniper_width "1"
cl_crosshairalpha "255"
cl_crosshaircolor "5"
cl_crosshaircolor_b "0"
cl_crosshaircolor_g "0"
cl_crosshaircolor_r "255"
cl_crosshairdot "0"
cl_crosshairgap "5.5"
cl_crosshairgap_useweaponvalue "0"
cl_crosshairscale "1000"
cl_crosshairsize "5.000000"
cl_crosshairstyle "2"
cl_crosshairthickness "1.500000"
cl_crosshairusealpha "1"
cl_fixedcrosshairgap "-4.5"

1280*720 2.4speed dpi 1360

voice_scale 0.08

cl_crosshair_drawoutline "0"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_maxdist_splitratio "0.35"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitalpha_innermod "1"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitalpha_outermod "0.5"
cl_crosshair_dynamic_splitdist "7"
cl_crosshair_outlinethickness "2.000000"
cl_crosshair_sniper_width "1"
cl_crosshairalpha "255"
cl_crosshaircolor "5"
cl_crosshaircolor_b "0"
cl_crosshaircolor_g "0"
cl_crosshaircolor_r "255"
cl_crosshairdot "1"
cl_crosshairgap "-2"
cl_crosshairgap_useweaponvalue "0"
cl_crosshairscale "0"
cl_crosshairsize "5.500000"
cl_crosshairstyle "3"
cl_crosshairthickness "1.500000"
cl_crosshairusealpha "1"
cl_fixedcrosshairgap "3"

weapon_debug_spread_show 1

-processheap -noforcemparms -novid -noforcemaccel -noipx -nojoy -preload -highpriority

-perfectworld -cursor_scale_percent 100 -vulkan -language japanese

good good study , day day steam.

Sekai is a girl named World