i miss you papi

It's tough, man... I've been trying to cope with this for a while since Season 2. I was 5 points away from Platinum, and in the game I was calling flankers and one of my teammates starts making fun of my voice.
I'm gay and I guess I'm kinda feminine sounding too, and this guy starts calling me a ♥♥♥♥♥♥ over team chat. Then a few other teammates start laughing. It suddenly reminded me of all the times I was verbally and physically bullied growing up, and it basically made me shut down since that's how I coped when I was young.. Went from 2495 to 2100 in S2 since I was just really scared about using voice com ever since...
S3, now I only say something at the very end of the match like "Nice job" or "Good try, everyone" before I quickly leave. I know it's ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ things up because I always play support and I'm not calling out over voice when I see flankers or need help or want to call ults. But I'm just genuinely nervous about having my whole team pile on me with homophobia again...