When I was like 12 I start like masturbating in the shower and I would use soap as lube so then when I use soap as lube like go in my urethra and it would burn but you know how say I'm god strongest warrior so I would say this is just a test from god and I need to push through so I would still finish but then over time I managed to assiciatepain with pleasure so i became masochist In game of course