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Zeugziumy (Voice/Text Chat Off) 18 Jun, 2021 @ 1:46pm

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It took me a long time to finally know what I had. I have been in several therapists through my life, like... a lot, for many different reasons, and I never knew I was in the spectrum, at all. There were some speculation, but nothing were too concrete. I'm 24 years old now (25 soon)... and I have memories of being in therapy when I was just a teenager.

It was only made obvious when my other difficulties started to fade, which made it much more noticeable. And contrary to depression and OCD, autism kinda feels "natural" to myself, it doesn't really has the same impact as the other two, it's a bit hard to explain.

Although, daily life is still a bit difficult, I tend to have a lot of difficulty in adapting to new daily routines, and it's very easy for me to have hyper-fixations over things.

Zeugziumy (Voice/Text Chat Off) 18 Jun, 2021 @ 1:46pm

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On my current therapist, we didn't had any idea that I had autism, all we knew is that some of the traits that I had from OCD were also commonly found in those who has autism. It was only after I decided to do a series of questions that things started to make more sense.

I think I have been with my psychiatrist since... 2018, and my therapist near the end of 2018, not really sure on the details. I also had another around 2017, which I had to left because the only way to get better was via medication... While medication did help, I started doing the second therapy ever since me and my psychiatrist discovered of my OCD. Dealing with two things at once was basically impossible with only meds, so I started doing therapy around that time.

Zeugziumy (Voice/Text Chat Off) 18 Jun, 2021 @ 1:46pm

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Excluding all the other times I have been in therapies in my life, it has been about 4 years for me to just start to get better now. I have been in this depressive state ever since mid-2016s. But nowadays, I'm not very depressive anymore at all. In fact, I don't tend to feel anything very much.

But yeah, maybe we can start talking again sometime. The discovery that I fit in the spectrum is fairly recent, so I'm still processing and adapting myself in a few things. I thought in sending you a message through Steam instead of commenting, but I thought it would be better just say all at once in one comment.

I already had plans in adding you back ever since a few weeks ago, it was only a matter of time that I would look up for your Steam profile again... but then "Fatih" came to my comments section to ask a few things, and I noticed you were there on his comment section, so.

Zeugziumy (Voice/Text Chat Off) 18 Jun, 2021 @ 1:46pm

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It's a strange feeling that I care about other people despite not feeling much. When someone comes to talk with me about more serious things... I understand their scenario and everything, but I don't usually feel very much. It's just the way how I am, I guess.

All this is new to me, though. So what I mentioned now above may or may not be true, I can't really tell.

Things has been going well. While ever since mid-2016s I started to isolate myself... But after therapies started to take effect... I started to de-isolating. Now I don't have much fear in talking with people in in-game chats, going on streams and talking with people on their chat, and all sorts of stuff.

Anyway, yeah. I guess that's it for now.

Zeugziumy (Voice/Text Chat Off) 18 Jun, 2021 @ 11:24am

Long time, no see. It has been a while since we last talked, I was dealing with a lot of things in the past, so it was hard for me to keep up talking with you, as well a lot of other people.

Things are better now. You told me once before that you are interested in people's backstories, and more serious topics... Well, I have put a few things on my "View more info" section of my profile for anyone to read, some of which you did not know before.

Since a couple of months ago, and especially this one, June, I have been finally more stable, in terms of emotions, feelings, and all sorts of things.

Anyway, nice to meet you, again.