i heard the child outside today (months later) say to the dog

"come here boy. do you wanna die??"

in what he thinks is a sweet voice

trying to give him a bone because he'd heard me tell his mother it can kill them

the dog utterly ignored him because all he'd ever done when he was his was beat him

like everyone charged with "caring" for the dog ever did: and worse


when the dog was first given me year and a half ago i caught him having given him a 6 inch metal slap bracelet in his mouth, trying to explain it could cut him

now i understand he full well understood

and this is the evil of the parents poured out also on the children

5 And the LORD descended in the cloud, and stood with him there, and proclaimed the name of the LORD.

6 And the LORD passed by before him, and proclaimed, The LORD, The LORD God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and truth,

7 Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children's children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.

8 And Moses made haste, and bowed his head toward the earth, and worshipped.

i gave the girl another gift, not costing me anything:

indeed it would have gone to waste, something i'd bought a year ago

forgot about, and left in a drawer


but she did indeed say thx


maybe she said it last time too honestly it's possible i'm not sure


what i am sure is i repent of my judgements

and i pray to receive Mercy, and not judgement myself

i've re-installed steam just to leave these last few comments each time i left them

otherwise i have no reason to be here until my game is finished (to advertise it)

concerning the comments below i had to point out also i think i was mistaken once


when i was given some chicken i think it was from the man not the woman

this is a small thing, but also not, because even 1 good thing i want to acknowledge it


also youtube showed me a video of why when a nurse breaks the little glass to get the medicine and uses a syringe why it's safe, why the glass doesn't get into the syringe (they say..)

w/e, doesn't apply to me, i will die before they stick any more needles in me

i have not been to a "doctor" since i was young and stupid

this video is not shown because of me, but the man next door

also youtube showed a short last night saying

"what to do when you're declared terminal"

saying what to do when you have 3 months left


this video has nothing to do with me, but is because of the man next door,

skinny, idk if it's "cancer" or "aids" or what, but the gay man is dying

i cried, but also it is a good thing, that him and his family would be removed from the earth

if they will not repent,

each one is heart-breaking, each one is the walking dead


i have never done anything to any of them but treat them as friends

now they all look away from me, except the girl will still speak,

totally unaware of herself or her transgression against me

(i forgive them all completely..)

in a comment below i said of one of the man's two boys,

"the one who is obviously gay",

but i don't think either of them act that way often, but both have mannerisms:

but i am not gay, but looking at me as a child i think i had some of those same ways about me


because now i see that every direction every angle is pressing (hard) for them to become that way

the demons who rule earth, the devil, and the broken "men" in charge of the world,
and the women happy to turn a blind eye,

i happen to be exceptionally resistant to the world, as God has made me

not everyone is like me:

i also fell to the demons and devil in the world, and it is by The Grace of God i am made clean