Have you ever thought that there is no point in your life?
I'm not talking about suicidal tendencies right now.
I just wanna say there is nothing special about everything we do.
We go to school or work for a company.
The point is that you are easy to replace and for the world you will not become an irreparable loss.
Because of this, I have a strong desire after graduation to change the world.
But the older I get, the clearer I understand how immature thinking this is.
You can't just take and change the world.
What is the chance that it will be me who will invent artificial intelligence or become president?
It feels like I will never make up for that heap of resources spent on my existence.
And never think about the fact that you live your life, only wasting and absorbing resources, and never give anything in return.
But when people realize that the world will gain more if they commit suicide, their philosophy is turned upside down!
They have to justify their existence by deceiving themselves into the thought that they are doing something useful.
Be that as it may, I want to live my life in such a way as to compensate for the resources spent on my life.
If I can cross this line and leave something behind, then I can die happy.
Of course, if nothing comes of it ...
It is unlikely that my selfishness will allow me to commit suicide.
Was it worth it to grovel about what an exemplary person I can be, right?
Ahaha!