“the soft glow of the moon,
the serene stars at night,
it reminds me
that i am one of them,
just in the wrong body.
i’m going to join them soon,
hopefully not for a while,
but soon.
i will become one with the moon,
as i leave my earthly cage.
i will become a constellation in the sky,
living on forever.”

"constantly dissociating, wishing it would all end.
what is feeling? how do i feel ♥♥♥♥?
i only feel the occasional rage,
while retaining no emotions.
lost behind a curtain,
pulled back by my uncertainty and issues,
i question whether i am really present at all."

i hope the earth swallows me whole, i pray. and i am sorry to all those i have hurt.