"I felt like I was watching a dream I'd never wake up from. Before I knew it, the dream was all over; I was younger then, I wasn't afraid of anything, I didn't think about dying for a second. I thought I was invincible. Then I met some girl. I wanted to live, I started to think like that; for the first time I was afraid of death. I had never felt like that before. Why do people stay longer in my head than they do in my life..."