for real now I'm going

i found several apartments in our rent range just need to talk to dad ps I'm sorry bye and kiss soul sacrifice time

mmm

there's one benefit to working at Panda Express you get free food

I know it's too much to ask so I won't but please do not drop me

I'm not your typical bunch

look I say things and do things but I love you regardless

Mom just said we have 4 people trying to get us out right now 4 people working on our case

or answers

people say ask yourself questions than write down the answers but where do the questions come from

I know what I did is bad but I don't know what self reflection is

it's not because I'm selfish , lack of empathy or anytbing I just don't know how to people know how to self reflect but whenever I try I just don't get it

I don't self reflect cause I don't know how to

what changed was trump when he went into office and heard all the changes he's doing and mom's prediction about America collapsing and the fact the universe is not allowing me any time to get ged or anything done it's showing signs that I can't get out as much as I would wish

If you constantly worry about income and no time at home, then that just means you can't get an actual "job" and have to resort to slaving your life away.
That is not life, that is nothing more than existing as a printer for people who don't even care for you.
Its factually slavery and all the signs point towards it, but you're the only one whos pretending none of it is wrong.
Resorting to calling me lazy just proves me correct because you know you have no ground to stand on for this type of stuff, I see it the same way as how my parents treat me.
I can do alot of productive ♥♥♥♥, but you will all still call me lazy because its not income.
In the end, you all only care for yourselves and the money.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one with pure intentions and selflessness.

I'ma follow you and I'm gonna just sit here and enjoy the cold I forgot my earbuds and I didn't bring my hoodie so I just have this green hoodless jacket on but it's the best I got

No sane person with a brain enjoys working unless they're in a position of power.
Its a complete waste of life but you don't see that because you're more naive than me for whatever reason.
That is the reason no one shares that mindset, its wrong because its toxic and gullible.

Nothing about any of this is lazy, your obsession of work paints you as nothing more than a workaholic thinking it contributes something to society, it really doesn't.
Its the same as those suicidal japanese businessmen who have nothing better to do in life.

It contributes to nothing, also gaming didn't ruin your life, you ruined it yourself but I didn't mind that.
Because theres always time to fix something.

I landed you a girlfriend but yet I'm constantly ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ it up

I'm so cold yet I don't have the balls to leave my parents because I rely on them when I shouldn't at this age

I dunno what will be said tomorrow it could be bae news but we can't move you out or we found you a place just gotta drive over or something else but I constantly worry it's not gonna work

no one asked for me to be born I didn't ask to be born yet I was and all im proving to the whole world is I'm a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ , a social reject , a empathy less ♥♥♥♥ who doesn't try at anything to succeed just gives up over and over

but perhaps its for the best I hurt everyone who's near me

I'm troubled I know I am I want to live in a studio apartment and help my mom out by doing the stuff she did with jack like having her stay at the apartment but now she's talking about placing me in a shelter it scares me

I don't want it I love you a lot but I keep falling into this trap of constantly fighting with you because I can't keep my paranoia in check

I love you more than anything but if we are gonna just keep fighting perhaps its best for us to stop being friends

im outside the car and at a tree down the wash ik just gonna stay here for a while until I change my mind or something happens I'm cold but I'll be fine

I don't want to lose you but in turn in sabotaging everything with you cause I worry excessively I call you lazy cause I don't get why you don't want to help me out too

none of this ♥♥♥♥ is okay in my eyes but I can't help myself I constantly panic about everything the hud vash team lady said give her until Wednesday to find something for us yet I worry it won't happen I shouldn't but I do , I want to move you here but at the same time I worry I can't keep the place with just me working you hate me panicking I in turn get heated with you and you get more heated with me we just set each other off

I thought maybe you shared the same mindset but you don't I'm the only one who wants to work you see it as slavery maybe that's fine don't work but I'm worried about costs of everything and the fact I will have 0 free time at home I most likely will be working 2 jobs just to make it my dad doesn't care about me , my step dad does but at the same time doesn't my mom despises me cause I have anger issues that I can't control you set me off but in turn I set you off

I don't want that gaming ruined my life cause I can't control myself to not game on it everyday

I'm tired of being so wrong for wanting to work to prove to my parents I am capable of more than just being a stay at home assbag that does nothing but games hud vash takes that away I'll be stay at home again

I'm done trying I want a pistol at the end of the month and I just want to be left alone

you hate me so much then fine hate me

I'm sorry I called you such a lazy ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ prick but you don't want to do anything

I'm tired of being told I'm wanted but as soon as I bring up my worried of money you make me out to be this ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I'm done with people im done with being told it's so wrong to worry about how we are gonna make it

break up with me it's easier on yourself I'm walking away I threw a rock at moms car and I think I'm just gonna go to a tree and sit there until night fall

Mom calls me a monster , you call me a monster if I'm such a monster than I should just go

I'm running away

This isn't worry, this is abuse and betrayal.
I'm tired of seeing you try to convince yourself any of this is right.
None of it is right, you literally threw me away over income and jobs.
Stop using freeloading as a insult and think of the things you've been doing to me instead.
What the ♥♥♥♥ is wrong with you, ask yourself that.

I don't even want to comment anymore, I'm sick of waking up to nothing but misery every single day.
Nowhere I go is safe, not even here.

at least you got to meet mom that is one good right

at least you got to meet mom that is one good right

but maybe this is for the best I don't have the ability to feel sad right now so I will just go watch videos since i probably bombed this relationship out of the water cause I worry excessively

I hate the fact you ignored me yesterday

I'll go I guess

I think the only one you actively add now is vlad

keep me blocked or add me again if you want or just silent unblock me until I try to add you again fine

I guess I lost you I'm sorry for being a ♥♥♥♥ and hurting you calling you shinji and lazy I just see no way to do this

if you are gonna block me Everytime we argue then do you really want to get out

you act like I'm a monster who wants to hurt you but you don't see any issues with the fact how are we suppose to make it you don't contribute any information you just constantly fight and argue