Heavenly father please aid me Lord because I am fighting a losing battle inside of myself. My mind is unraveling and I am at the breaking point. I feel like I am dying from the inside out, my heart hurts, my chest aches, my head is in chaos, my body feels like it is going to stop any moment.

I don’t want to feel like this. I don’t want to feel weary, and I don’t want to feel this kind of emptiness. You said all those who are weary should come to you. Lord, I am weary, I am weary, I am so weary Lord. I am coming before you Lord and kneeling at your feet, I come before you Lord with my existence bared for you to see.

I come to you with the scars of my physical body and of my soul. I come to you with my fears, failures, sadness, sorrow, pain, anxiety, and my broken self. I come to you Lord will all that is within me. O come to you Lord because these tears won’t stop. This agony is beyond unbearable Lord.

I am standing at the edge of reason, unable to keep myself from falling off and sinking deeper into the abyss. Lord, I don’t want to fall, I don’t want to sink deeper into that darkness. I want Lord to feel and see the light. I want to feel the warmth of your love and mercy upon my soul. I want to feel life a human being and not an empty shell.

I want to stop feeling like my existence in an option. I want to feel like I belong in this world. I want to feel like I have a place that belongs to me. I want to stop feeling like the world in crumbling around me and that I am going to shatter any moment. Lord, I want to stop feeling like my heart will stop beating any moment. I want to stop being in so much pain. Lord, I am hurting so much. I am hurting so unbearably much, so much Lord that I just want it to stop. I am in so much pain and I cannot begin to describe how painful it is Lord. I feel like every step I take, every day I get up, takes all of my energy. All of my strength to keep going. Sometimes Lord, I just don’t want to get up, I just want to lie in bed, close my eyes and let everything fade away as I fall asleep.

I am at my breaking point Lord. I am trying, but I just don’t feel better inside. I am aching desperately for you Lord. Please, please help me Lord! Please, help me to clear my mind of these thoughts. Please help me to feel alive again. Let that energy run through my body, my mind, my soul and let me feel like a human being again.

Lord, the days of happiness seem to have disappeared and everyday I only feel glimpses of happiness before the sorrow takes over. I want to stop feeling chained to this life, to this body, to this existence. I want to feel liberated, soar free, and unbound to this emptiness. Lord, I want to feel, I want to breathe the air in and feel alive. I feel like a zombie Lord, awake but not really knowing anything.