forgive english, i am russia.

i come to study clothing and fashion at american university.

i am here little time and i am very hard stress.

i am gay also and this very difficult for me,

i am very religion person.

i never act to be gay with other men before.

but after i am in america six weeks i am my friend together he is gay also.

he was show me american fashion and then we are kiss.

we sex together.

i never before now am tell my mother about gay because i am very shame.

as i ♥♥♥♥ this american boy it is very good to me but also i am feel so guilty.

i feel extreme guilty as i begin orgasm.

i feel so guilty that i pick up my telephone and call mother in russia.

i awaken her.

it too late for stopping so i am ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sex.

i am very upset and guilty and crying,

so i yell her,

"i am ♥♥♥ from sex"

(in russia).

she say what?

i say

"i am ♥♥♥ from sex"

and she say you boy,

do not marry american girl,

and i say

"no i am ♥♥♥ from sex with man,

i am in ass,

i ♥♥♥ in ass"

and my mother very angry me.

she not get scared though.

i hang up phone and am very embarrass.

my friend also he is very embarrass.

i am guilt and feel very stupid.

i wonder,

why do i gay with man?

but i continue because when it spurt it feel very good in american ass.