EcksSanDer
Daniel Lamb   United States
 
 
I'm a hardcore Girls Last Tour fan, so many times I would even try to escape reality with lucid dreaming, I would be with the Girls where I would often play with Yuuri and help Chito with fixing the kettenkrad, but one day as I was talking to Chito, we went to my dormitory for a private talk. She immediately said, "You know you could live with us forever." I gave her a confused look and she continued, "We understand that you live on earth and you REALLY wish to live here". I then said "How..How did you know?" She then giggled and said "Because we've been watching you, silly!" This was a dream come true and I almost cried right there. She then said, "I talked with Yuuri and she agreed that you would be a great partner, you just have to do...one thing". She then held my hand and looked deep into my eyes and said "...You have to kill yourself for the transfer to work correctly." I then gave her some questions, "How long do I have before the deal expires?" She then said "Yuuri said 3 months.." I added by saying "What's the most painless way?.." She giggled again, "Suicide will require pain buuut..if you want it quick..Get a gun and a nice shot to the head works." I then agreed and she gave me a kiss on the forehead, "I know this will be tough but once it's over and done, you'll get to live here!" I then woke up and this was last week and i purchased a gun. I might actually kill myself because that dream just felt too real to be fake and my life isn't doing so grand.

*comments jus random lyrics from music i enjoy & references*
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EcksSanDer 5 jan om 18:45 
It's hard to remember
What we did last November
It's hard to forget
What we haven't done yet
EcksSanDer 28 sep 2024 om 17:34 
Was seven strong now I'm dead and gone
Cut off my wings by the break of dawn
I sang the song now it's said and done
Keep a lyre and a bow like I'm Apollon
EcksSanDer 27 jul 2024 om 5:45 
You, you all are so funny
"Therapy will heal you"
"Pills will help you"
You've tried so many times
But still I wanna die
You don't get it
I don't want to get better

I've been there for years
I ran out of tears
There is the only end
Where I'm laying dead. - Denis Nidzelskiy (Blade and Bath)
EcksSanDer 19 jan 2024 om 18:21 
My tombstone, read the writing
"Lived a life of grief beneath a mask of violence."
EcksSanDer 13 apr 2023 om 3:51 
Because I'm better off dead
Than I am alive
Oooh
EcksSanDer 12 apr 2023 om 22:44 
Where will I go, is my soul all alone?
Am I just floating and looking into places unknown?
Am I nothing or something? Is something wrong?
Am I just here to hold this place until something new comes along?