My name is Van, I'm 30 years old and I'm from Japan. I'm an artist, I'm a performance artist. I'm hired for people to fulfill their fantasies, their deep, dark fantasies. I was gonna be a movie star, you know with modeling and acting. After 102 auditions and small parts, you know I decided that I had enough. Then I get into escort world. The client request contain a lot of fetishes, So I just decided to go you know full master and change my whole entire house into a dungeon, uh dungeon master, you know with a full dungeon in my house. And uh, It's going really well. Fisting is 300 bucks, and usually the guy is pretty much high on a popper to get to really get relaxed, you know and I have this long latex glove that goes all the way up to my armpit, and uh then I put on a surgical latex glove just up to my wrist. Then just lube it up, and uh it's a long process you know to get your whole.... get your whole arm up there. But It's an intense feeling for the other person, I think for myself too, you're going places that um even though its physical with your hand for but, some reason it's also emotional, it's more psychological too. And you know we both reach the same place too it's really strange at the same time. And after a session like that, I get really exhausted from it at the end.
I don't know I feel kinda naked because I am looking at myself for the first time, well not myself but this aspect of my life for the first time and it's been harsh... three to five years already? I never thought about it... Kinda sad I feel kinda sad right now, I don't know why