Until you stop taking your entire life for granted, especially the people in your life, who care about you, and try to help you, you'll always be miserable.

You keep doing the same things that hurt you over and over again and never seem to learn anything from it. That's why I linked that video analysis to you. Because you follow the same destructive cycle of behavior as the dude in that video. Remember how you'd keep playing Overwatch until you'd rage quit, only to do it all over again? You know where this pattern of behavior is also exhibited? Drug addicts. It's also an extremely well known fact at this point that the people responsible for making these games literally funded research into gambling addict just so they can ruthlessly exploit vulnerable people just like you.

You need help, but until you're willing to help yourself, none of that is going to work.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHIf2IFloAc

Remember when I showed you a bit of that manga where they were all like "If you want people to like you, you should start by being nice to them" ? You clearly didn't take that lesson to heart, despite how much you scoffed at how "common sense" it was. If it's so "common sense" to you, then why do you find it almost impossible to understand?

It's an extremely well known phenomenon in psychology and you're a textbook example of it

Foxy, you being an *sshole to people because you're terrified of them rejecting you, is exactly why they reject you. It's called a self fulfilling prophecy.

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