she Said she want the lamb with Gravy I Told her Im goated with the Sauce

I ASKED

Alright so I'm a 17 year old white dude dating this black girl. All my life growing up when I was playing videogames I would scream the n word when I get pissed. I'm pretty immature but I'm not an angry violent person, only when I play games like COD I get lost in the heat of the moment. I go to a pretty diverse school and we all make fun of each other's races and religions and stuff like that but we take it as jokes, so I guess I'm just used to hanging out with those kinds of people. But the other night my girlfriend was in the kitchen and I was upstairs and I screamed the word very loud lmao. She hasn't confronted me or anything but I'm feeling this weird distant vibe from her that I've never felt before. I've tried duct taping my mouth when I'm playing xbox but then it gets all warm and uncomfortable on my mouth after a few minutes so I have to take it off.

Any advice?

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