I've been getting messages/emails from people who thought I just disappeared without a trace. I'm still here, breathing and all. But as the title said, I'm currently battling PTSD that I had gotten due to a pretty traumatic incident a couple months ago. I'm currently writing an online novel about it in a fantasy like setting because writing it as is, is still very painful. I'm hoping it will help others who went through the same thing and those that can resonate with it can feel that they are not alone.

I will however, write the positive things that I have discovered along my journey and I'm hoping by the end, I can write the bad things in a non fantasy way because the hurt and the pain would be healed enough.

I know I'm very vague, but I can tell you this. I'm at a crossroad in my life. I am also for the first time in my life, doing something to help myself. It is new to me and I feel guilty for trying to piece myself back together from the things I went through. I'm learning to accept, though very slowly; that it's okay for me to do this and that I'm not a bad person for doing so.

Some of you may have an idea of what I'm talking about, some may not. But if you know someone who went through some trying and harrowing events in their life and they are like me who was raised to believe that our feelings aren't worth anything. That we don't have the right to feel the way we do and that we are only worth something when we can give something even if it means breaking our bounderies and ourselves for others, I hope that you can tell them, there's always something worth fighting for. That they are worth loving. That we are all worth something and as long as you do things the right way, healing yourself, putting yourself back together, and accepting that our bounderies were impeded on is painful but it's okay.